Stacy Homemaker

I don't suppose being caught up on laundry, and *writing* down recipes to try really qualifies me for a homemaker of the year award, but it sure feels like it should.  I mean, my right hand is cramping a lot and everything.

In my defense, we don't have money to buy food right now (let alone "ingredients"), and I'm saving housework for Brenna - who owes me on a grand scale. If it's not going to be dishes, then it's going to be, well, everything else.

My dogs get nervous when I have my laptop on my lap, and they can't get up here. Random info.

So only like 5 people read this.  Also random info.

I just folded a bunch of towels.  I really need a place to keep clean towels.

My daughter was really mean to me this morning.  I'm expecting an apology, AND a thanks when she gets home.

I'm thinking about finishing these shelves that Zac was putting together last weekend.  I kind of don't enjoy shelves taking up the entire couch. For a week. But even if they were finished, the finished product would still be standing in my kitchen. Until I could find a place to store the 2 mirrors and giant painting that are resting in the place it needs to go.

Alright, only an hour left of recipe time.. so, laters..

Things I just decided.

1.  I don't like whistling.

2.  I don't like clapping in any sort of music or song that doesn't involve the phrase "B-I-N-G-O". And even then it's kind of iffy.

3.  I was folding laundry, and realized how much I hate hate hate turning clothes right side out.  So from now on, I'm not going to.  They shall be folded inside out, and the wearer can deal with it as he/she pleases.


4.  I don't like when people play guitars so fast that it cuts off notes.


5.  I don't like the phrase "uric acid".


6.  I want a puppy.  But I want one that doesn't bark, or pee in my house.

I couldn't be a teenager.

I'm pretty sure Zac wanted me to put his socks and shoes on, and take the trash to my dad's myself... but no, I didn't.

I'm not a nice person.  Not really. I will help someone, if it's convenient for me. But I'm not one to go out of my way to be a good neighbor.

Give you a can of soup, yes. Babysit, I doubt it.

I couldn't go back to being a teenager for this reason.  Many, many other reasons as well, but mainly this one.

Teens need attention.  They get sad when you ignore them for a boyfriend.  Friendships break up because of silly drama.  Drama period. Too much drama. Ug, drama.

My friends know I'm not good about hanging out.  We go a week or two without talking.  But they also know that I love them more than crack, and get so excited my toes twitch when I hear from them.

Things were so different when I was little.  If I didn't get a note back in study hall, or didn't talk to a friend all day, it was tragic stuff.

I don't have the energy for that much dedication anymore.  I love my friends.  But, well, there are no buts.. I just love them.

It's okay if they put their family and husbands before me.  That's life.  Now it is, anyway.

When did I get old?

Stay at home mom? That's not hard.

I don't have a "real" job.  I just stay at home all day watching tv, and messing around on the computer. At least that's what the phrase "stay at home mom" seems to imply.  Recently, someone claimed that if a stay at home mom's house wasn't pristine, and didn't have home cooked meals on the table all the time, that the moms were just lazy because she did it just fine.

Well, maybe. Or maybe I just don't cook.  I'm not a cook.  I hate cooking, touching raw food, and processing recipes in my brain enough to make it come out in a digestible manner.  Yet my kids are still alive, and thriving.  Go figure.

Also, I'm not overly ashamed to admit that my cousin and her two friends came over, and helped me sort out big chunks of my house a few months ago.  I needed the help.  I was sick for 3 months at the beginning of the year.  The year before I spent large chunks of time in the psycho-people hospital. Come to think of it, the year before I did too.  And I have too much crap. Speaking of recipes, that's one for total chaos.  So they came.  And they opened my world back up. And showed me that people are awesome.

But anyway, my house isn't as clean as it should be. I still have a lot of clutter, and I seem to have no organizational skills what so ever.  Sometimes I look around and think to myself "Whyyyyyy?", but then things like this morning happen, and I remember whyyyyyy.

I was doing fine until about 9am. Then I hear "Did you eat the rest of that cake?" .. I said "uh, no, when did we have cake?" .. I assumed Zac came out, and I hadn't heard him.

Nope. A voice. And even after I figured out it wasn't real, I argued with it.  Because I didn't eat any cake. I don't even like cake. And why should it care about my consumption (or lack thereof) of cake anyway?


It's frustrating. And tiring. By 9:30 I was ready to just go back to bed. Which I did for an hour and a half, and woke up wondering if I ate cake and just don't remember.


Real? no. Convincing? yes.


I am mentally exhausted, and I don't predict housework happening today.  And I'm pretty sure Chris will be eating a hotdog and some peas for supper.


I might even go back to bed until he gets home at 4.  You can call it "lazy" if you want to. I will continue to call it "hiding from my weird reality".

Mornings? Check.

I'm not hating mornings as much as I have in the past.  The alone time is kind of nice, and in some cases - productive. Not overly, but just. I think it has a lot to do with actually taking my meds at the exact right time.. Something I'm getting pretty good at thanks to my new phone.  Today I'm not even tired (I bet I will be in about 5 hours though).

I'm really enjoying my furnace being fixed.. It and the a/c now shut on and off, and don't run all the time. Thank you Jarrod. My electric bill thanks you as well.

I wonder what to have for breakfast. I can't think of anything else to write, so I'm going to go figure that out.

Gaping Holes R Us

I went to the dentist with the mindset that they will do some cleaning, and do a filling. Or whatever.

Well he pulled a tooth.  It wasn't so bad except I'm starving right now, and I can already tell it's going to be really weird not having a tooth back there. It makes things uneven. This does not work well for my OCD. And there's a really big hole because it was partly fused to the bone.

I have to go back on Thursday for a cleaning and a filling.. Yeah, that's what they say now..

"Why do I have to play each of my games once every day?" .. "My OCD is rubbing off on you."

I want people to wait on me today.

Brenna's dad should find out if he can see again today.  His surgery went well yesterday.

I think I'll write more later. I'm not funny today either.

I really love rain

I really love the rain. I mean I REALLY LOVE the rain. I've embraced these days without the sun, and well, mostly just thought about how much I love the rain, and hate the sun.

Do you hate it when you're really mad at someone, and then they wake up the next day acting like nothing is wrong?

Christopher is flipping through an encyclopedia.  Brenna is on Facebook.

I wish someone would hand me the remote.. Contrary to popular belief, Sunday is not for football.

At least when Zac isn't home.

Quit smurfing all over the road!

"They're developing technology in cars that will track road conditions, so if there's a shovel in the middle of the road, it will smurf you over." ~Zac

Good to know. Especially if I'm trying to out run Gargamel or something.

Okay, so the first thing on my mind, I won't share.

The 2nd thing on my mind is a turkey and cheese sub from Subway that's in my fridge for supper.  I want it now.  I also think that if you're not going to load it up with all the vegetables, it should cost less.  I know vegetables are probably cheap, but so am I.

I almost just asked my dog to get me a drink out of the fridge. Not sure where that came from.

I traded alcohol for hamburger this morning.

I'm trying to write this, and check my dragons on Facebook at the same time.

"What's the name of that city that has the college in Colorado?" ~Zac  .. Yeah, I had no idea, I just started naming towns that I've heard of until I got it right. Go me! I didn't win a prize though.

Maybe I do get a prize. Zac is going to wash some silverware. And I love him for it.

I need to figure out how to order books online. I'd be more excited about it, if I wasn't going to have to do it with a 5 year old on my lap.

I kind of feel lost now that I don't have unlimited laundry to do.

I wonder if I could fall asleep, if I tried to take a nap. Let's test it out, shall we?

Just for the record.. Zac has driven over a shovel in my car before.