I have a secret mission.

It's interesting what motivates and inspires me.

Well, perhaps not really interesting.

Like today I'm doing more laundry simply to find my jean shorts that have $60 in the pocket.

Zac wants me to buy Zest today.

I don't know what will get me to drive to town today for that.

I suppose not listening to Zac while could be a reason.

But should I go now, or after Chris is home?

I can't wait till like April.

Laters.

Someone please make me exercise.

So we skipped the gym again. I feel exactly like a person who did not go to the gym feels..

able to breath and not sweaty.

Zac thinks it is so hot in here.

It's not.

I have a secret.

I will be first.

I need to go through DVDs.

Since I didn't get a nap today, I'm kinda crabby.

I'll be back later.

Good Intentions.

I got up, got Chris ready and on the bus, fought going back to bed, took a shower, again fought going back to bed.. Then decided to get decent and head to group. Only to find out they're not having it today because they're having a trip/halloween party this evening.

Can I go? Nope. Someone has to run my kids around, and doesn't want to go anyway.

So I'm home now. Tired. Awake. Watching Spongebob.

 We have 4.5 39 gallon trash bags full of dvds that I'm transfering to my room from the living room. I'm going through them to make sure they're in their cases, and then alphabetizing them on the shelves as I put them on.

I can't do this right now though cuz Zac's in bed.

Soooo.. I'm writing this.

Is everybody ready to trick or treat?

I thought so.

I've got to tackle more laundry today.

And DVDs

OH! but first I'm going to change my scentsy stuff up!

And that's all I've got cuz well, we all know I'm just avoiding cleaining anyway.

Laundry anyone?

Yep, it's the wall of clothes.

We cleared out my room yesterday. It looks nice right now, but we have to put the dressers and everything back in there and that will take up this awesome space that I've got in there.

My carpet shampooer is broken. It won't suck up the water. Anyone know how to fix that?

I should do some laundry.

I think I'll go take a nap instead.

Ok ok I'll start it, and then take a nap? Will that appease the stay at home gods?

Let's hope so.

Welcome me back.

So one more time in the psych hospital. It went alright. I'm sure I'm now cured and ready to take the bull by the horns. or something.

Hold on, I'll be right back.

o/~ Would it be so bad if I could turn you on? o/~

I can't get that song out of my head.

The psych doctor at the hospital took me off all but 2 of my meds, and then replaced them with one. So happy! (in theory) So I'm down to taking meds only 4 times a day instead of 6. Bonus.

Also, no voices.. so double bonus.

SuperMegaUltra to do list regimen is almost ready to be put in to operation. I'm on October. It's taking forever. I started it months ago. It's Epic.Trust me.

I'm kinda hungry.

Brenna's biodad has a job now. Kind of impressive for someone who's been blind for a couple years, and just had a cornea transplant. Unfortunately his disability is what pays for our house, so I'm kind of paranoid now.

o/~Turn you upside down.. o/~

Don't wanna waste it....

EMDR - Day 1

Okay, I still never asked for what it stands for, but it seems to be a little intense. I mean we started talking about my fear of windows, and 20 seconds later I'm crying over my dead grama.

*blink*  .. what?

All from someone tapping on my knees.

Ah well, I'm sure whatever happens needs to happen. But seriously.. what?

I bought a memory card for the wii today with my $18 refund check from the eye doctor.  Only to find out it's the one for the game cube part of it we need. So I stole Brenna's.

Hey, sometimes you gotta pick favorites...  hehe just kidding Brenna! (or am i..)

I *just* had it..

My mind, that is

I've not been on much recently because my eyes changed, and I'm waiting to get new glasses. Blurriness sucks.

I've been watching Spongebob, solid, since 9:30am.

I'm sick of coughing. Chris is still sick too.

It's karate night. I don't want to go. I want to send everyone away, and try to nap.

Zac working days is kind of weird.

Brenna's taking out the trash. YAY!

Rollin, rollin, rollin..

Chris is doing my Draw free, so sorry, adam, carla and roberta..

I'm losing weight again, so woo!

That looks like "so WOOL" to me. Just sharing.

Maybe I should find something to eat.  Cottage cheese it is!

..all I know for now..